MY BLISS 
    
     This question has many possible answers, infinite maybe, and I still don't know exactly what to choose, what to think. I find myself in fear when I hear the word happiness, because I just don't know what to think of that. When I stop worrying about where, and how I'm happiest, I guess I just think of what I could change within my life that would improve my quality of living. If I could wake up and feel calm, if I could know what I want to do everyday, if I could manage all of my responsibilities. What would make me happiest though, is if I could create with no hesitation. I want to look at a blank sheet and feel all of the excitement that I already do, but in my blissful state, that excitement would turn into productivity and hard work. That excitement would fuel me from point A all the way to point Z. In my happy place, the thing I love to do would not bring me any stress-- just contentment. 

Eraserhead:

a Journey Through One's Subconscious Fears

     I experienced the ride that is David Lynch's, Eraserhead, a couple years ago when I was way too young and way too impressionable. My brother made a bet to me that I wouldn't be able to finish it all the way through and I had to prove him wrong. Lynch was very young when he created this film-- it was actually a college project. Even in his beginning creations, the style is obvious and impossible to ignore. The fact of the matter is that David Lynch KNOWS how to make an audience uncomfortable and even quite scared. The film starts with over ten minutes of silence, forcing the viewer to keep their eyes on the screen. The imagery is static-ey black and white. The feeling behind the image is discomfort and anticipation. As the story progresses, you slightly understand more of what is happening in this young man's, Henry's, life. 

     Many people believe that this film abstractly depicts the fears of becoming a parent. I say abstract, but in all honesty, the events and images taking place in this film are quite morbid and grotesque. Henry and his wife give birth to this "creature" that consumes Henry's life and pushes his wife away. It keeps Henry up at night and drives him to his absolute breaking point, where at the climax of the film, he stabs and kills the baby. As a viewer, you're horrified, but as someone analyzing this film, you're still horrified but you're just slightly impressed. The boundaries and walls that Lynch breaks down with this experimental film is incredible. I think the meaning is lost on 75% of it's audience because of the blatant BABY KILLING. Even though the baby looks like an alien, we are shown that it's the offspring of Henry and his wife, so Henry killing this alien is Henry murdering his child. Overall, this film is eye opening and gut wrenching, but definitely a must-see for those exploring the world of experimental film and/or horror.